zaknafein

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closure. by zaknafein, literature

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closure.

-[ threw ]- it is my fear that one day i will stand alone and say "i had all that i needed and i threw it all away." -[ atnight ]- surrounded, by a pulsing mass of the darkest kind and waiting as sound kills away every thought pleasantly lost in a room with no perceptible c o r n e r s -[ home ]- this place we go without fear where predictability reappears where we can make peace with the day against we just fought we go without asking ourselves what pushed us to go there this place that we dare call home... -[ teachings ]- then one day, at school i was told it was the latest thing to have a personality.

to hide -- by zaknafein, literature

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to hide --

((( .to.hide. ))) ___________ I've heard 't's a lack of decency to stare into one's eyes Perhaps that's why society stays parted and rarely do we see real intentions arise I've heard it's a tad insecure to converse with strangers We never know, we could be lured and tricked to some malicious plan like becoming his friend I've learned 't's no possibility to close ourself and silently wish for someone to see.

deviation -- by zaknafein, literature

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deviation --

Toujours progresser, de façon à ne jamais regretter. Ne pas se garder de jeter un coup d'oeil derrière, parce que c'est comme ça qu'on s'est rendu là. Et on n'a rien perdu, tout a changé, tout est différent, mais pas tout-à-fait, pas complètement. On n'a pas suivi d'autre recette que la nôtre, celle qui est apparue lorsqu'on l'a crée, et à aucun autre moment. Si peu d'ambitions, mais tant de possibilités, droit devant, ou un peu à droite, tout juste un petit peu. Une droite qu'on n'empruntera probablement jamais, mais qu'importe; il me semble voir quelque chose partout où je regarde. Que ce soit dans les détails insens

words -- by zaknafein, literature

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words --

sedfaucibuswisi.words.pulvinarlectustquis -- Words are so wonderfully Erasable. Every mistake so easily Swiped By a mere move of the hand. Every thought later judged Wrong Takes a fraction of an Instant To vanish and be rightfully replaced. Yet when a spoken thought Slips It marks, it stains so Deeply That no matter how hard I attempt To make it go away, to Cleanse To revert an altered Perception Of the me I gradually formed There are traces that still remain Traces that never disappear Scars adding up to a Full, Plain, Black.

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reminescence -- by zaknafein, literature

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reminescence --

/* reminescence */ Still the taste of a distant evening, haunting the evident emptiness of this day, this hour that feeds on distant memories to subsist scattered thoughts drowned in altering vapors and visions of a black-painted escape door, faintly glowing under ultraviolet lights. Eyes closed to reveal distorted wavelengths, and an ever-evolving mass of the palest skin, changing in flawless harmony with every sound, asymetrical perfection missing a single element; an empty seat hopefully shaped for me. Slowly losing touch with Possibility, swept by the stinging realizations that made me swear already too many times before to

blood -- by zaknafein, literature

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serialized -- by zaknafein, literature

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serialized --

1100010101.serialized. -- and you throw another of your serialized smiles custom-made, guaranteed to soothe the ever-seeking soul of the next desperate target. and he tries, as he's tried too many times before to trust the surface of lips wrinkled by the incessant abuses of one or another's hopes. and she turns away, [well of course she does] and he understands, [perhaps a bit late] that he shouldn't have stopped, [why haven't i learned by now] that coming up for air is utterly useless when it rains so hard. and she turns away, flooded with senseless happiness it leaks from her every move spreading instants so full an

static -- by zaknafein, literature

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static --

static -- *_../=-| what\'s a better enemy than our own mind? it will do anything in its power to make us feel uncomfortable with the decision it just took, so we don\'t have the burden of analysing the most probably decieving consequences. sickeningly true is the force that leads us back when we at last decided to take a step forward, paralyzed by the perspective of an unforseen trouble that may distort the very acceptable present. if it ain\'t broken, don\'t fix it. and even if it is, be careful not to break the unmounted and shattered pieces of your heart, they\'re all you have. it can always be worse... you\'re taking cha

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Looking at You by zaknafein, literature

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Looking at You

Knowing you're there but afraid to look towards you afraid of what you might think of me (..that anonymous little me) of those eyes stalking you... your absence of color an aura of beauty surrounding you contrasting with this environment somewhat too simple So many dark strings coming out of eyes so bright Unconcievable blends deranging contrasts absorbing me What have you that they all lack? thousands of little details discovered every moment Looking, wishing in silence Maybe you're like me Maybe you'll like me You seem so different but (again) I must be mistaken Impressions are decieving still, leave me dreaming nai

Irony -- v2 by zaknafein, literature

the Observer by zaknafein, literature

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the Observer

just an observer standing still watching them the useless unseen ever analysing trying to understand the great shapeless sea of common thinking never wrong flawless by standards a gray road for everyone to follow empty minds with approving smiles gave up numbed by the view turned away to see if there was something else ...and there was .became. whatever they do whatever they say nothing can touch me for I am not here I'm not anywhere immaterial eye you can make me disappear but it won't do nothing for I was never seen

the Listener by zaknafein, literature

Obsessed by zaknafein, literature

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Obsessed

Just hoping someday, you'll try to look my way... hoping that one day, I'll catch your divine sight A random glance, thrown with no intended effect carved onto my mind foreverafter Numbed, by the flat tone of your footsteps Ever repeating -- can't stop following you Wishing you'd turn around, so I could fall over you Grab me, and I'll never let go Wishing still, by moonlight, that your breath will come to me, and make me alive again, with your voice, to soften me all the way through my soul talk to me, so I can die slowly by your side.

decide -- by zaknafein by zaknafein, literature

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decide -- by zaknafein

.decide you know you have no obligations to see all these things I choose to see not because I must but because I believe that there is an alternate to you to the nonsense everywhere around surrounding us don't you see it don't you feel it too always something wrong didn't you take the time to stop and look while everyone ran or did you see me looking at you you can change I'll stand still not waiting but wishing for you at least, to try to know what's behind even if you don't want to be part of it.

dependant souls by zaknafein, literature

insomnia -- by zaknafein by zaknafein, literature

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insomnia -- by zaknafein

insomnia bursts of rain restlessly puncturing my window ceaselessly hitting my mind waking a thousand thoughts keeping my vision plunged into darkness and guilt lights inside me flashing in the night analysing, too late whatever errors were created what's been lost what will only come back while I'm awake and shouldn't be the coldest winds leaking through my window creeping to my soul filling me with what I am not and should be

both of us alone by zaknafein, literature

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I regret by selune, literature

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I regret

Sorry for dreaming too far away, Sorry for going too often astray, Sorry for running blind into danger, Sorry for treating you worse than a stranger, Sorry for thoughts that I sought to divide, Sorry for loving I could not provide, Sorry for stars that I could not create, Sorry for hints that I failed to relate, Sorry for laughing at your point of view, Sorry for thinking I was better than you. Sorry for faith that I could not maintain, For your ideals that vanished in pain... But now, no matter how I regret, Sorry, my dear, I can't make you forget - It's too late.

alone in the dark vx by selune, literature

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alone in the dark vx

Ray of light behind the curtain, Where you lost your godly powers? Hazing up what once seemed certain, Mists of doom condense in towers. I\'m afraid. Left alone in secret chambers, Feeling eyes of unseen creatures, Like an insect caught in amber There I long for human features. I\'m alone. Running through eternal mazes, Through the labyrinth of errors, Crossing cliffs, which my fear raises, Lose myself in darkest terrors. I\'m lost. Ray of sun behind my window, Can\'t you shine a little longer? Bring your light to earthly limbo, Make my hope a little stronger!

Sleepless by ladygekko, literature

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Sleepless

Kitty wanted out. So she tried to kill herself. Swallowed a whole bottle of sleeping pills. Now she can't wake up. She can't get out. *** "Here's your latte." Kitty looked down at the tall drink, then up at the man who had brought it. He was tall, blond, and pale. He had large white wings sticking out of his black blouse. "Am I dead?" "No!" the man answered.. "Of course not... Well, not really." He smiled at her. "Just drink your latte, I have one mocha to do and I'll be right back to explain everything. This happens quite a bit, you know." He left and Kitty slowly picked up her drink, taking in her surroundings. She was sitt

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serialized -- by zaknafein, literature

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serialized --

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Current Residence: near montreal, canada
Favourite genre of music: electro-industrial | IDM | indyelectronic
Favourite photographer: cataya | kittynn | adam1975
Operating System: windows xp
MP3 player of choice: windows media player 9 | rio 800 128mb
Shell of choice: the one i remember
Favourite cartoon character: noone!! [effortless comics by sighguy]

Favourite Visual Artist

morningrise | sigu | -licia-

Favourite Movies

the hours | the matrix | many others

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

why not peeking at my daily choices?

Favourite Writers

wastedemotion | ladygekko | sonnentau

Favourite Games

star wars : knights of the old republic

Favourite Gaming Platform

xbox

Tools of the Trade

notepad | black ink pen | empty hours.

Other Interests

writing | music | you.

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zaknafein

Oct 29, 2003

risen --

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Waaaah! After more than one month of absence, the ghost comes back... and posts! Yep, two new poems, or should I say two and one third, since the haiku is depressingly short. Hope you appreciate it nonetheless. Aaaaaand i'm still in charge of three (3) accounts... ~zaknafein (https://www.deviantart.com/zaknafein) is, of course, this account. the words account. :icondeidre: is my new side-account, for graphic stuff only. :iconindustrialheaven: is my beloved club, which I update frequently. music only. Who knows when I'll post again. So don't await... anything. And... I still loooooove music. ..zak -= ...greetings... =- Check out the following deviants... now! -[ tal

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zaknafein

Oct 8, 2003

returned --

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Aaaah. Time for a new entry, feels I. Now I'm "in charge" of three accounts. Or, two and a half. But mostly three these days. ~zaknafein (https://www.deviantart.com/zaknafein) is, of course, this account. the words account. :icondeidre: is my new side-account, for graphic stuff only. :iconindustrialheaven: is my beloved club, which I update frequently. music only. My poetry side is a bit -dead- right now, so let's invest in something that works, shall we not? :P I loooooove music. ..zak -= ...greetings... =- Check out the following deviants... now! -[ talented addictions ]- :iconcataya: :iconsonnentau: :iconindustrialheaven: :icondeidre: -[ talented friends ]- :

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zaknafein

Sep 23, 2003

arrived --

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It's taken awhile, but I'm here... safe... Just finished my somehow HUGE (heehee, gotta like those catayaish contradictions ;)) industrialheaven (https://www.deviantart.com/industrialheaven) journal update and mass-noting session... it feels good to be back. :) As for poetry... I've written some (french) things for a friend, and that's about it. It'll come back, it always does. Music fills my life... and my goddamn credit card :| I must've bought 200$ worth of CDs in the past week.... I'll be broke if I go on like this!! But Forma Tadre and Cleen and Newt and Combichrist and Imminent and.... they all sound so GREAT!! :D Have fun! That's what counts, says I! ..zak -= ...greeti

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AprilMariposa

Dec 28, 2010

Zaknafein isn't dead? My life is a lie!

b1gfan

Mar 2, 2008

words are erasable...but posts...well, those are word of a differenmt language.

montrealrock

Aug 9, 2006

salut, juste un mot pour savoir si tu étais toujours un membre actif de montrealrock et si t'avais une deviation que tu aimerais afficher pour le groupe.

cheers.